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endlessflask) wrote2019-06-11 09:08 am
endlessflask) wrote2019-06-11 09:08 am
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text, un: hargrove
that probably doesn't mean a lot but
i don't know what came over me
i guess i might be a little into harrington
text; un: high.king
no shit
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i told you i wasn't into him before
[ And he was completely obviously into him when he did it. ]
anyway it's never gonna happen so it doesn't matter
avenging him is as close as it's ever gonna get with us
but he gets his ass kicked a LOT so i can't make a hobby of that i guess
hell, i kicked his ass back home
so sorry or whatever
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you realize he's in full Bisexual Distress thinking about you right
honestly I don't really know why but all things considered I think he could do worse
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why would you say that
he doesn't like me he just feels responsible for people from the same world as him
never mind
he could be writing me love poems for all i care, i'd be in deep shit if i got it on with a guy
so don't tell anyone or i'll kick your ass again
[ Billy, that's the sort of thing you're not trying to do. ]
i mean i won't kick your ass but please don't tell anyone anyway
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I have to ask who here is going to give you shit for getting it on with a guy
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i mean he's not HERE here but
i still can't do it
[ He doesn't want to come out and say 'I'm so scared of my dad that I'm still trying to appease him in this weird dream dimension that he isn't in', but that's the gist of it. ]
cw: implications of abuse
Eliot's reply is delayed again, but this time only by a few minutes instead of a few days. ]
My dad was really shitty to me, too
And my brothers
and everyone, I guess
Actually in high school I beat up the boy I liked because I thought that would keep people from beating me up
spoiler alert, it didn't really
anyway
the point is, I get it
It's not easy to leave behind
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yeah i
had this rivalry with steve because it was something we could have
[ Something physical, but socially acceptable. Socially encouraged, even, because lord knows the 80s loved their displays of machismo. ]
i don't think he was ever into it but it was just dumb locker room shit
then my dad got on my case and next time i saw steve i really beat the shit out of him
so i don't think he's ever gonna be into me, i'm surprised he's putting up with me at all
and yeah you're right about that
i know he's not here but he's not gone either
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the best thing I ever did when I got away from my family was live my best gay life
Sometimes if I think about it, it still scares me
That's not ever going to go away
But you can find ways to cope with it
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i like chicks too so it seems easier to just go with that
[ And yet, he doesn't want to just go with that, because Steve Harrington's here. ]
but steve's just
ugh
i hate him! i hate his stupid face!!
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It's fine
[ God. Is this what it was like when he and Quentin were pulling their bullshit? He's going to have to apologize to everyone for that, too. ]
Look
He's into you, and he says this same shit about you, the "oh I'm into him but I hate him" shit
in my personal experience, and believe me when I say that I have a lot of it, when you're willing to fuck someone up to protect someone else, it means you've got it bad
so next time you're both together maybe the two of you can just make out and get it out of your systems
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because i kinda tried to test the waters once
i was being an idiot but i flirted with him a little
i knew he just broke up with his girlfriend so in the showers after basketball practice i told him not to worry about it because he was so pretty that he could date whoever he wanted
i mean that's not subtle right?? it doesn't seem like it to me
we were both naked??
but he brushed it right off
he didn't even look at me, he just kept washing his hair
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2) if I was Steve I definitely wouldn't think that was flirting
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2) really? how much clearer can i get
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especially if it's someone with a history of beating me up
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i gotta buy him flowers now?
i don't even buy the girls flowers
also i didn't beat him up yet then i just shoved him a few times
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you're the reason the phrase Boys Will Be Boys is problematic
what do you do when you're trying to pick up a girl
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wear a revealing shirt and tight pants, get in real close
pretend to be interested in whatever they're doing or their personality or whatever
you know the deal
[ Yeah sorry Eliot, Billy's a sleazebag. ]
it's easier with girls though, you can just flirt
with a guy you have to be able to deny it if someone catches on
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I'm gonna tell you two things right now and for the love of God either listen to them or never come to me about this again
1) all that shit? That's what you do with guys.
2) no one here gives a shit if you're into guys, especially not your dad because he's not here
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what if he shows up
i'm not trying to argue or anything but
it's a possibility, right?
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if you can't stand up to him here, then where the hell else are you going to?
also
Not to be cynical or anything
but we don't even know if when we wake up, we remember this place, right?
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[ He wasn't actually planning on ever confronting his dad. When he turned eighteen and earned enough money, he was just going to drive back to California and hope to never see him again, but he doesn't want to look like a wimp for saying that out loud. ]
i hope we remember it
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[ It might seem like a stupid question, but in the past expressing actual human emotions has only resulted in him being called a pussy. ]
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