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[driving]

oh
yeah i

had this rivalry with steve because it was something we could have

[ Something physical, but socially acceptable. Socially encouraged, even, because lord knows the 80s loved their displays of machismo. ]

i don't think he was ever into it but it was just dumb locker room shit
then my dad got on my case and next time i saw steve i really beat the shit out of him
so i don't think he's ever gonna be into me, i'm surprised he's putting up with me at all

and yeah you're right about that
i know he's not here but he's not gone either

[endlessflask]

trust me
the best thing I ever did when I got away from my family was live my best gay life

Sometimes if I think about it, it still scares me
That's not ever going to go away
But you can find ways to cope with it

[driving]

i dunno
i like chicks too so it seems easier to just go with that

[ And yet, he doesn't want to just go with that, because Steve Harrington's here. ]

but steve's just
ugh
i hate him! i hate his stupid face!!

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my boyfriend likes chicks, too
It's fine

[ God. Is this what it was like when he and Quentin were pulling their bullshit? He's going to have to apologize to everyone for that, too. ]

Look
He's into you, and he says this same shit about you, the "oh I'm into him but I hate him" shit
in my personal experience, and believe me when I say that I have a lot of it, when you're willing to fuck someone up to protect someone else, it means you've got it bad
so next time you're both together maybe the two of you can just make out and get it out of your systems

[driving]

are you sure you were hearing him right
because i kinda tried to test the waters once
i was being an idiot but i flirted with him a little

i knew he just broke up with his girlfriend so in the showers after basketball practice i told him not to worry about it because he was so pretty that he could date whoever he wanted
i mean that's not subtle right?? it doesn't seem like it to me
we were both naked??
but he brushed it right off
he didn't even look at me, he just kept washing his hair

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1) that's INCREDIBLY homoerotic and probably the plot of several gay coming-of-age films
2) if I was Steve I definitely wouldn't think that was flirting

[driving]

1) shut up
2) really? how much clearer can i get

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Honestly? if someone did that to me, I'd think they were being an insensitive prick, not trying to get into my pants

especially if it's someone with a history of beating me up

[driving]

i told him he was pretty what more do you want
i gotta buy him flowers now?
i don't even buy the girls flowers

also i didn't beat him up yet then i just shoved him a few times

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you're giving me a headache
you're the reason the phrase Boys Will Be Boys is problematic

what do you do when you're trying to pick up a girl

[driving]

just smile a lot and tell them they look nice
wear a revealing shirt and tight pants, get in real close
pretend to be interested in whatever they're doing or their personality or whatever

you know the deal

[ Yeah sorry Eliot, Billy's a sleazebag. ]

it's easier with girls though, you can just flirt
with a guy you have to be able to deny it if someone catches on

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Billy
I'm gonna tell you two things right now and for the love of God either listen to them or never come to me about this again

1) all that shit? That's what you do with guys.
2) no one here gives a shit if you're into guys, especially not your dad because he's not here

[driving]

what if he shows up
i'm not trying to argue or anything but
it's a possibility, right?

[endlessflask]

we're living in a massive, nightmare inducing dreamscape
if you can't stand up to him here, then where the hell else are you going to?

also
Not to be cynical or anything
but we don't even know if when we wake up, we remember this place, right?

[driving]

i guess you're right

[ He wasn't actually planning on ever confronting his dad. When he turned eighteen and earned enough money, he was just going to drive back to California and hope to never see him again, but he doesn't want to look like a wimp for saying that out loud. ]

i hope we remember it

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real talk? That's the most human thing you've ever communicated

[driving]

is that a good thing?

[ It might seem like a stupid question, but in the past expressing actual human emotions has only resulted in him being called a pussy. ]

[endlessflask]

It's a good thing.

Hey, so I'm not really in any shape to be going out for extended periods of time right now, but if you ever wanted to stop by the house whenever you need to get shit off your chest
The door's open for you

[driving]

ok
you're being awfully nice to me considering i just beat your face in but


thanks. i mean it.