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3rd November, voice, un : harrington

[acidwashjeans]

Hey. Uh.

Is now a good time?

voice, un: earl.gay

[endlessflask]

As good a time as any.

[ He’s been wondering when Steve was going to contact him. ]

[acidwashjeans]

I went home. In the cocoons. [Obviously in the cocoons, Steve]

Something-- Billy's dead. Back home.

[endlessflask]

Oh.

[ Eliot totally knows, of course. Billy’s already told him. But it’s probably better to let Steve tell him on his own. ]

That’s, uh. So I just went home and found out Quentin’s dead there, too. So. I know how you feel.

[acidwashjeans]

Oh, shit, I'm sorry.

Billy- it- the monster possessing him made him do all this terrible stuff, and right at the end he stopped it. So it killed him.

[endlessflask]

Who would have thought Billy would go out like a hero. Quentin stopped a monster, too. It’s a really weird coincidence. It’s shitty, I know. How are you holding up?

[acidwashjeans]

Honestly? I don't know.

[ And he really doesn't. ] I kissed him.

[endlessflask]

Was it everything you hoped for?

[acidwashjeans]

... yes?

[ Eliot it was amazing]

Turns out he's been into me for months.

[endlessflask]

Yeah, I know.

[acidwashjeans]

You know?

[endlessflask]

Well. Yeah. For one thing, it was glaringly obvious. But we also talked about it.

[acidwashjeans]

Oh.

[He wants to ask how obvious, but he's already figured it out a little]

Why didn't you say anything?

[endlessflask]

It wasn’t really my place to say anything. But I did tell you several times to just make out with him already. I figured that was a good enough hint.

[acidwashjeans]

Apparently not.

[.... But now he's curious] what else has he said?

[endlessflask]

Would you want me telling him all the things you’ve said?

[acidwashjeans]

[........]

Fine.

[endlessflask]

Just be happy knowing he's really into you. You know, emotionally as well as physically. But mostly be happy he's emotionally into you. He's an idiot but he's a really good guy.

[acidwashjeans]

I am. Really, I am.

[But he's also feeling a lot of other things]

I just-- I don't know what to do about the rest of it.

[endlessflask]

Honestly Steve? I wish I knew what to tell you. I barely know what I'm doing when it comes to any of this shit.

[acidwashjeans]

Yeah.

[He sighs]

Is that just what it's like, being an adult? I used to think I had everything worked out and now...

[endlessflask]

Being an adult sucks. Sorry to be the one to break it to you. Just go with it. We have to take advantage of what we have here, while we have it. Just try and remember that.

[acidwashjeans]

[ there's a long pause before he answers ]

Is there-- even a point? We don't remember any of this when we leave.

[endlessflask]

I don't know. I can't really speak for you, but, I lived a life with Quentin that I shouldn't have remembered, and then I fucked it up in so many ways when I had the chance to do it again. Maybe I won't remember shit if I ever get back home, but I can't lose another chance. If you're not going to remember it, you have nothing left to lose, right?

[acidwashjeans]

I guess.

[ And it makes sense, it really does.

He presses his palms against his face. ] God, I'm such an idiot.